WIP of an inked turtle from reference (microns of course). Still love the heck out of this toned tan paper. Stippling is my thing at the current moment. I enjoy making thousands of tiny dots to produce the illusion of shape and range of value.
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I mentioned the terms "value" and "contrast" in my Psych class when the teacher asked about night vision. She asked if I was in art. I said no. The girl next to me was probably embarrassed...she is an Animation major...part of me wanted to apologize for showing her up.
But in her defense, she was doodling. So good for her. Kudos. Many kudos for staying true to yourself.
Speaking of staying true to yourself, I have been struggling. Y'know how I said college was going great? Well, everything except for my roommates. I am just...very different from them. We have different values, different ways of thinking, different principles, morals, emotions, social expectations, levels of cleanliness, ideas about "having a good time", ideas of having good relationships, expectations and attitudes towards many things (including school), and on and on...
So, it has been tumultuous for me as of late. I asked my RA if I could change roommates next semester, and he replied that it was a difficult process as the housing is very full. And I needed a "legitimate" reason. And I don't think that the above things count.
So I feel very stuck in a rooming situation with people who don't support the things I consider most important.
Yes, I have other friends, and I hang out with them. But people are busy. And the people you live with...LIVE with you. You can't avoid contact with people you are sure to see several hours a day, sometimes all day. It's just draining to be around people who go against everything you hold close and dear to your heart, the essence of who you are. It's draining to be around people who constantly make stupid decisions that you can't say anything about because you know they wouldn't listen (because you're different and a threat), and because people don't want unsolicited advice (which I understand, but they're still stupid decisions).
Basically, I am just frustrated by the people in my life who I know have the most influence over me, because I don't want to be influenced by them. I am trying to take measures to avoid as much contact with this influence, but...there's only so much you can do when you're literally surrounded by it. Because you LIVE in it (I have 3 roommates who I am referring to).
They all went home this weekend, and it was an amazing weekend. Most of my time was spent alone, doing things I like. I also spent a good deal of time with my friends (who are good influences - I love them so much, and I thank God for them every day).
I am beginning to understand that this rooming situation is a trial to test me. It is pushing me to the breaking point, I'm not going to lie. But. God is with me. I know this...and part of this test's purpose is to push me closer to Him. I realize this...and that's what I am going to focus on. Resisting bad influence and being strong...relying solely on God's strength, because mine just isn't enough.
(Scroll down for life update, if you care)
I mentioned the terms "value" and "contrast" in my Psych class when the teacher asked about night vision. She asked if I was in art. I said no. The girl next to me was probably embarrassed...she is an Animation major...part of me wanted to apologize for showing her up.
But in her defense, she was doodling. So good for her. Kudos. Many kudos for staying true to yourself.
Speaking of staying true to yourself, I have been struggling. Y'know how I said college was going great? Well, everything except for my roommates. I am just...very different from them. We have different values, different ways of thinking, different principles, morals, emotions, social expectations, levels of cleanliness, ideas about "having a good time", ideas of having good relationships, expectations and attitudes towards many things (including school), and on and on...
So, it has been tumultuous for me as of late. I asked my RA if I could change roommates next semester, and he replied that it was a difficult process as the housing is very full. And I needed a "legitimate" reason. And I don't think that the above things count.
So I feel very stuck in a rooming situation with people who don't support the things I consider most important.
Yes, I have other friends, and I hang out with them. But people are busy. And the people you live with...LIVE with you. You can't avoid contact with people you are sure to see several hours a day, sometimes all day. It's just draining to be around people who go against everything you hold close and dear to your heart, the essence of who you are. It's draining to be around people who constantly make stupid decisions that you can't say anything about because you know they wouldn't listen (because you're different and a threat), and because people don't want unsolicited advice (which I understand, but they're still stupid decisions).
Basically, I am just frustrated by the people in my life who I know have the most influence over me, because I don't want to be influenced by them. I am trying to take measures to avoid as much contact with this influence, but...there's only so much you can do when you're literally surrounded by it. Because you LIVE in it (I have 3 roommates who I am referring to).
They all went home this weekend, and it was an amazing weekend. Most of my time was spent alone, doing things I like. I also spent a good deal of time with my friends (who are good influences - I love them so much, and I thank God for them every day).
I am beginning to understand that this rooming situation is a trial to test me. It is pushing me to the breaking point, I'm not going to lie. But. God is with me. I know this...and part of this test's purpose is to push me closer to Him. I realize this...and that's what I am going to focus on. Resisting bad influence and being strong...relying solely on God's strength, because mine just isn't enough.
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