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I am transitioning from college student to independent adult.

Even though I will still be in school for a few more years, I will not be living with my parents anymore.
Normally I would like this. I love change, I love independence. But lately I have felt isolated and alone, and that isn't a good place to be in while making this transition.
Finding housing and a job, trying to keep finances together, trying to plan for the future, and trying to focus on my academics...it's stressful. It makes me feel out of control...especially when I try to go for advice to either my friends or my parents. My friends don't give the best advice. I mean, who can blame them? They don't have much life experience. But now my parents are starting to do the "Whatever you think is best" "I know you'll make the right decision" mantras. Thanks. So helpful.

The worst part is the loneliness though. It's not like I don't talk to people. I have plenty of friends. Study buddies. All that.
But I don't have solid friends that I would go to at the end of the day to discuss how my day went. Or friends to discuss the future with. I miss that...occasionally I get friends like that, but they always get uprooted from my life and go elsewhere. And I need a person to be physically close and accessible for this to work. None of this long-distance bull. None of this "I'll see you in class" bull. What close friendships can be made with interactions like that?

Anyway, life goes on. I suppose it's just another one of those seasons.