I am recovering from surgery.
It has been up and down. Sometimes I'm doing really well and recovering nicely, sometimes it feels like I'm taking steps back, and sometimes progress is so slow I want to scream. I have this giant bruise from the surgery stretching from the bottom of my foot to my knee, running along my bone. It makes it hard to sleep; when something brushes against it, the whole bruise tingles painfully for a few seconds. Along with general discomfort and lack of ROM from the surgery, it's hard to get comfortable...
Furthermore, and more importantly, I hate being at home. It makes me into a person I hate. I've been trying to distract myself from my surroundings but my parents aren't 100% supportive of my solo time. With my parents, I feel like I'm backpedaling into childhood. Without my support group, I find myself prone to slipping, especially as I'm mostly immobile and unable to drive. This lack of independence is driving me into mental instability. I need out of here, and soon.
...just a week and a half more. I can make it. And then be with my friends again, my boyfriend, my support group <3 I miss them all so much...I am so blessed by them all. It's just frustrating to have something but not be able to access it...
Soon. Soon I will go home, away from my family.
It has been up and down. Sometimes I'm doing really well and recovering nicely, sometimes it feels like I'm taking steps back, and sometimes progress is so slow I want to scream. I have this giant bruise from the surgery stretching from the bottom of my foot to my knee, running along my bone. It makes it hard to sleep; when something brushes against it, the whole bruise tingles painfully for a few seconds. Along with general discomfort and lack of ROM from the surgery, it's hard to get comfortable...
Furthermore, and more importantly, I hate being at home. It makes me into a person I hate. I've been trying to distract myself from my surroundings but my parents aren't 100% supportive of my solo time. With my parents, I feel like I'm backpedaling into childhood. Without my support group, I find myself prone to slipping, especially as I'm mostly immobile and unable to drive. This lack of independence is driving me into mental instability. I need out of here, and soon.
...just a week and a half more. I can make it. And then be with my friends again, my boyfriend, my support group <3 I miss them all so much...I am so blessed by them all. It's just frustrating to have something but not be able to access it...
Soon. Soon I will go home, away from my family.
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| A wedding shower card I made for a friend of mine :) Metallic paint on the roses! |
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