It's been 5 years since I started this blog.
I've successfully updated it once per month for five years.
I kinda impressed myself with the consistency through these crazy years, even though my art production has gone way, way down. Now I feel it's more of a chance to recap or vent or process through whatever is going on in my life. Looking back, it has been quite a journey. Life is kind of crazy. But good.
I found out my childhood cat has cancer today. He probably won't live very long, maybe a few weeks. I hope I get to see him before he passes, but I do not want to be there when he dies. I did that with my last cat, and it was awful. Sometimes letting them fade from your mind is preferable...instead of the slap of reality to the face.
Right now I'm laying down on my bed, my body exhausted from work and healing and inflammation and fighting and my muscles could use a really good massage...and my eyes could use some rest. And my mind could use some ease. I just feel tense and limited.
I could really use my boyfriend right now. He eases my mind so quickly, so easily...if he were here he would even give me a fantastic massage and cuddle with me...and my heart would feel so warm and at ease.
Instead, I lay here alone, listening to my roommates live their lives outside my door, just wanting and wishing for life to stop or slow down for just a minute. Things are churning too fast, my mind feels chaotic and unrested. I just need some peace in my life.
I've successfully updated it once per month for five years.
I kinda impressed myself with the consistency through these crazy years, even though my art production has gone way, way down. Now I feel it's more of a chance to recap or vent or process through whatever is going on in my life. Looking back, it has been quite a journey. Life is kind of crazy. But good.
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| Mother's day gift - ink (microns) |
I found out my childhood cat has cancer today. He probably won't live very long, maybe a few weeks. I hope I get to see him before he passes, but I do not want to be there when he dies. I did that with my last cat, and it was awful. Sometimes letting them fade from your mind is preferable...instead of the slap of reality to the face.
Right now I'm laying down on my bed, my body exhausted from work and healing and inflammation and fighting and my muscles could use a really good massage...and my eyes could use some rest. And my mind could use some ease. I just feel tense and limited.
I could really use my boyfriend right now. He eases my mind so quickly, so easily...if he were here he would even give me a fantastic massage and cuddle with me...and my heart would feel so warm and at ease.
Instead, I lay here alone, listening to my roommates live their lives outside my door, just wanting and wishing for life to stop or slow down for just a minute. Things are churning too fast, my mind feels chaotic and unrested. I just need some peace in my life.
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